You know I've been feeling sick lately. Work has been all over my buttocks with deadlines, and I have half a dozen writing projects I keep wanting to do, but there's just no time. Sometimes I look at the blog and think, sorry babe, I got nothin' for ya. I despair of having anything interesting to report, especially when I'm busy and sick and just not training in the right mental place. But, then...I got a super nice compliment today... Tim wrote,
"I just want to say thank you for your tireless dedication to the art of jiu-jitsu and your blog. I read it every day and it has helped to forge the jiujitsuka that I am today and hope to be in the future. Muito Obrigado and Osu!"
Wow. My instinct towards self-deprecation lunged to the fore and wanted to say "buddy, you need better role models." But I am honored and deeply touched. After all, he just said "helped" so it's not like he doesn't have other, better people to model-- and maybe in some way it's good to see the mistakes and failures of this random mediocre bluebelt out there. I love, love, love being part of this international community of jitsukas... every time I look on my little blog analysis thingie (sitemeter, it's free, it's awesome!) I can see who is online right then, and there's so many parts of the world represented! And they're reading OUR WORDS! (um, yeah, not just me... when you comment, you're out there too.. I love it!) I find people on every continent, every day on this blog and it just stuns me.. amazes me.. and totally completely humbles me. I had famous blackbelts come up to me (to me!!) at the Pans and tell me they read my blog. WOW.
So thanks guys. I'm sorry I'm not writing much the last couple days/weeks. I am still thinking jits (and when I fall asleep on the couch I'm dreaming it. I invented a kick ass choke!! but forgot it as I woke up.. isn't that just my luck?) and I appreciate your patience, I will be back.